My life is such a shambles,
I keep losing track
I'm not worthy of the shoes I wear,
These clothes upon my back,
Beat me to the ground,
take everything I own,
it takes no effort looking back,
to see how little I've grown.
Break Every bone in my body,
and as the feeling induces,
Crack open my rotting soul,
and drink my bitter juices.
I am the deepest pit you can find...
I am the endless void in your mind.
I am the darkest, near-bottomless hole,
I am the fire that burns within your soul.
I am the shadow that follows close by,
I am the part of you that will never die,
I am the one thing, you never wanted.
and by me, you are forever haunted.
I look into your lifeless eyes,
You seem constantly lost in thought,
but you merely stare back into mine,
and it makes me feel distraught.
I know we have our differences,
But you're merely a beast.
You've lost your old way,
or changed it at least...
You've been normal all your life,
You were born civil as a child,
But as our sights lock to each other's now...
I can see, that you've turned wild.
Those who seem happiest,
Are truely sad inside,
on the outside they look full of life,
but underneath their shell, they've died.
There's no truly happy person out there.
I don't even care who you've met.
True happiness doesn't exist.
Satisfaction is the best you can get.
As the weapon is unsheathed,
My head starts to spin...
I feel the knife edge,
running across my skin...
My heart beats a fury,
The Adrenaline kicks in,
My maker pierces the surface...
and forces it in.
My eyes begin to widen,
The blade inside me, deep,
I fall to my knees,
And I can't help but weep.
My whole world starts to shatter,
I begin to fall,
My hope... my dreams... my life...
This is where I lose it all.
My heart rate is speeding,
I can feel myself shake,
My world no longer has meaning,
And this is for my own sake...
So I look over the verge,
at the leap I must make,
And I haven't got much choice...
This is the only option to take....
I get the nervous feeling,
Over what I must partake,
I plan to plunge to the depths,
Until my end comes...
...and I break.